Route 66

So yeah, back home from Malacca, still as tired even after long hours of sleep. Not to mention, I've to drag myself to classes, dang! My lecturer caught me! :O She claims I'm not enthusiastic for lessons today. Meh.

Anyways,  I officially concluded another chapter of my life. It was one hell of an amazing chapter. What I've gained throughout this 3 years can never be put into words, of even how amazing all these people are and how much they truly meant to me, how they were always there for me, during the good and bad times : )

Since my classes ended early, and pretty much stuck in college till my mum decides it's time to finish work and pick her lovely daughter up, I'mma finish sharing what I had failed to share due to overwhelming emotions yesterday. haha. Personally, I thought my words were all mumbo jumbo, I was so choked up that I couldn't think nor construct proper sentences, all that floats in my head was "Rach, pull yourself together".

I don't have the slightest clue as to why I chose that event as my defining moment. Perhaps, in simple, It was a moment that shattered me into a million pieces and slowly patched them all back together. As I said before, people like me brought up in that kind of environment only forces me to overlook all emotions that everyone dubbed as "It will be your downfall". Thus, when taking charged in activities that I participated, even class projects, I always portray the strong and responsible yet unemotional one. Which is also the main reason why I was always chosen, whether I want to or not. All of these helped build up my ego and confidence.

Till 2010, I had not much idea as to how a pure disappointment felt. A time when you were not needed or felt like you were hopeless. It was all just too sudden, I thought I had everything going for me. During the period when I took up the part, it was as I said before, the lowest state of my life. Many nights I cry myself to sleep, not knowing why or how? I detoured from the path I thought I was heading. Everyone was so united that I felt, this is not where I belong, I shouldn't be the one soul that dragged them down, I tried many times to have the guts to pull out, which was a first for me, I don't believe in giving up because I always end what I started but this was one hell of a tough call to make.

On the shallow note, It doesn't matter what I say or write, because you knowing too much on what I had to go through was not necessary and only just the beginning and something I consider memorable. Hehe. Sorry! before much more misunderstanding arises, I shall stop at that. However, I'd just jump to the conclusion, I did end it all with a smile. During this ride, I'd consider myself very fortunate to come across 3 wonderful people that had endlessly helped me through it all. I assume you know who you are : ) THANK YOU!

Would I re-live this moment all over? YES, without a doubt. In a nutshell, life is full of surprises. You don't need me to share this story to prepare yourself. Just welcome it with open arms, and you'll see what I truly mean.