I like this song. Sing to it yet I've no clue what this song represents. However the title seems to fit my gloomy day. I'm not sure if it's just me or is it my surrounding? It's like the ups and downs in the sea of emotions. I'm usually pretty calm and collected. Or is it the anxiety while waiting for the news of my results?
Anyways, working on something I would like to call my story. Maybe being too indulge into the characters was a very bad idea. I tend to write tragic stories and I'm damn good in that area. I don't like happy endings because I .. nevermind.
A friend of mine did an interview questions, one of it which he answered, I won't deny that but I'm amazed people realized I actually put up that front considering we're not that close as I would think we are. But I liked that he noticed. I smile for many reasons, mainly because it brightens up the people around me. I seldom hang around deeply emotional people because I'm easily affected by their emotions. I subconsciously enter their shoes. But yet I don't want my close friends to feel like they can't share how they feel with me. Which makes me utterly disturbed in a way. I guess I fair better now in handling this crisis.
Ah, complicated. A day from all these problems would be nice. I really need that. You know, just walking around without any plans. Just your feet and your heart. I need to start listening to myself before I can do for others. Writing keeps me sane : )
"It sometimes feels like a strange movie, you know, it's all so weird that sometimes I wonder if it is really happening."
- Eminem
Rachel.
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