Route 66

Being in denial for a very long time has finally taken a toll on me.
The minute I have decided to let it in and to embrace this "feelings" that I've outcast for a couple of years since I've met this person, I've been extremely vulnerable, so much so, at times I've doubted myself, my confidence to draw a line, questioning myself.. trying to seek for that one thing I've been longing for. Till today, I'm still unsure of what answer I'm seeking for.

I've learned to trust this person with all my heart, but knowing it'd be impossible to advance to another stage, I've taken all the courage I have left to draw this line between us. I no longer desire to search for the answer. I no longer desire to waste my opportunity to start anew. Risk is something I wish to not take because losing you in my life would be the biggest mistake I'd have ever done. Before it gets deeper, I am taking a step forward to end it once and for all. Our friendship is what I truly treasure the most.

In a nutshell, I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of searching, I'm tired of believing. Therefore I'm going to end this right here, right now. Trust me, I'll smile my way through : )

Rachel.